Friday, October 31, 2008

The Perfect Halloween


This is Bailey's absolute favorite time of the year. This is her absolute favorite holiday. Even more than Christmas. True story. She loves everything about this time of year and today couldn't have been more perfect, even if I'd planned every detail. The weather was gorgeous. Not too hot, not too cold, not too windy. We had plenty of time to get to the farm before its season ended (today was the last day of the year). What a way to spend our holiday! And it was so perfect, I was able to get this photograph out of the day.




Trick or Treat!



Our current youngest was most displeased with what she now knows is Halloween, but she'd gladly take a treat for the torture any day.



Thursday, October 30, 2008

Autumn Harvest: Which One's Which?







During Bailey's class trip to the pumpkin patch, each child was allowed to pick one pumpkin and one apple. Your guess is as good as mine as to which one's which.


Dead or Alive

While on Wednesday's preschool field trip, we spotted something awesome as we were heading to our car. I was still conversing with one of Bailey's teachers and Bailey points out this magnificent creature. Her discovery was then followed by, "is he alive or dead?"





I'll let you decide. And yeah, she already knew the answer too. Regardless, Bailey was fascinated just the same.

Orange Panic

Bailey's been fabulous at paying attention to what foods she can and cannot eat as her throat is healing. She really listened to us when we had our talks. That almost makes up for all of those moments when it seems like she hasn't listened at all. But the other morning, she asked if she could have orange juice and I was the lucky soul to break it to her that it might burn her throat. She was right though, it is smooth and soft. She was disappointed, but she dealt with it. A champ, really.

Monday night, I picked up some things after I got off from work and among those were little orange juice boxes for her school's Halloween bash. They made more sense than buying cups and jugs of punch, plus they're recyclable! Later the next day, Bailey discovered them and asked about having one, and it's been crazy making sure she's drinking anything at all, so I jumped at the chance. After all, they came in packs of ten and well, I had more than I needed. Fast forward to Bailey drinking out of one and she seemed panicked when she told me, "LOOK! This is orange."

"Yes it is, sweetheart."

"But you said I can't have orange juice for my throat."

"That's true, but that's not real orange juice. It's like orange punch. It's okay."

"Oh."

She looked extremely relieved and went back to drinking it. And I was still proud she'd been paying attention and taking an active role in her body's recovery.

The Freakiest of Mommy Moments

I ended up asleep in Bailey's bed at some point. She's been having a rough couple of nights, waking up constantly in tears. So goes Dr. Wei's theory of better sleep-filled nights. I was on less than three hours of sleep, but my alarm was going off. I had lots of things to do before Bailey's Halloween party at school today. (We're throwing the shindig, so I wanted to make sure all details were in order.)

If you've ever had the great displeasure in being around me as I wake up in the mornings, I'm quite out of it and it takes a bit to get me to be alert. That might have something to do with all of the hours of sleep I get, or perhaps not. Either way, I'm *such* a morning person.

So I look to my right and see my beautiful Bailey's face and she wasn't making any sound at all. And then I touched her face just to give me that assurance, just like every mother needs from time to time, and it was frozen. Ice cold. And she wasn't making any sound. It wasn't until she moved her face due to the touch of my hand that my heart could finally leap back into my chest.

Yeah, I'm not so sure this snoreless sleep is going to make it any easier on me. But I'm going to keep her warmer at least.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Carnage


It is refreshing and relieving to know that Bailey didn't think this snack tasted so good. It's also a bit disturbing though that the reason I didn't get a better photo of these is because Daddy's been continuously enjoying them. That should teach me to procrastinate on taking a photo of a container of mushy bones in the future.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Special Delivery

Bailey was taking an afternoon bath. Yes, I know, an afternoon bath is kind of against tradition, but hey, whatever. Since she's in recovery mode, she gets away with a lot more. So, anyway, we were nontraditionally bathing and I thought I heard something and it was Fudge barking fiercely, well, as fiercely as Fudge can. Then it dawns on me, someone was at the door. I hated leaving her in the bath to check on the door and I was thinking it was either a Sign Pusher or the neighbors, so I was going to do a rushed version of, "can't talk, kid in the tub," mostly just to shut the dog up.

There was no neighbor or Sign Pusher at the door, instead there was a Flower Lady. She had brought my Bailey a basket of surprises and I had the great pleasure of taking the basket into the bathroom to a very wet Bailey.



Bailey was so ecstatic about her gift and wanted to know who they were from and was very gracious that her Aunt Susie, Uncle Pat and Cousins Jeannette, Rebecca and James cared so much. A definite thanks to them!! Her bath soon came to an end and she could hardly contain her enthusiasm. And most of all, she wanted her bear detached from the bouquet immediately.

There was a bag of M&Ms hidden in the mix and Bailey wondered aloud if she could have those with her throat. She said they weren't soft but decided that she could just suck on them. I was ever proud of her problem-solving skills. Later though after trying that, she said it was too hard to not eat them and they were crunchy and crunchy isn't soft and she is only supposed to eat soft stuff right now. Again, I was proud of her ability to think through these situations.

Not too much long after, Bailey pulled out a rose from the bouquet and informed me that "sometimes boys and girls give each other roses when they love each other." She's been quite obsessed with this crazy logic lately, using phrases like, "in love." Trust me, she's not getting any of these ideas from me. But she did insist that I smell her rose and gave it to me and then told me she needed a vase for it. I went and found one, coincidentally enough, one from the flowers Uncle Pat and Aunt Susie had sent to the hospital when Bailey was born. Bailey proudly displayed her rose in it and somehow, someway, more flowers slowly found their way into that vase as my little redhead became a budding florist, making her own bouquet. The best part was she made a card and put it in an envelope and put it in the middle of the flowers on top of the vase and told me they were for me.

Her generosity amazes me and while the thought is sweet, I'm hardly the deserving one. That'd be her.



Sunday, October 26, 2008

Walking with a Ghost





Since it's that time of year, I thought now is as perfect of a time as ever to mention Bailey's most favorite song is "Walking with a Ghost," and prefers the White Stripes version. You haven't lived until you've heard this tiny child singing:

I was walking with a ghost
I said please, please don't exist



Now, perhaps those aren't the actual lyrics, but it certainly sounds about right.

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Oh How Times Have Changed

In case you've ever had your tonsils removed, what I am about to reveal to you will most likely differ from your own personal experiences. Times have changed people, and hopefully they'll keep changing. Luckily, advancements in technology have a lot to do with it, and maybe some creative thinking.

But let's start from the beginning, shall we?

Last year, we had a brief peek down Bailey's throat and saw the largest set of tonsils imaginable, at least to us. This caused us to immediately contact our pediatrician's office the next morning for a visit which ended up with a positive culture for strep. We were warned that it may take a while for her tonsils to reduce in size and go back to normal. And well, it continued to take a while. Months passed, and no reduction. I happened to browse through some old photos of Bailey laughing and noticed that her enlarged tonsils seemed to be featured in quite a few of them spanning a few months ahead and we had never noticed. I'm not going to give myself a hard time about that though, since the time we did discover them, they were at their largest and they were infected with strep, and the tonsils themselves were our only symptom of that. Other than the golf ball sized tonsils, she was perfectly fine and as ornery as always.

During one of our consultations with our pediatrician, she was asking us more questions to get down to the nitty gritty about these tonsils gone rogue and it became apparent that they might need to be removed. After realizing just how bad her snoring was, which we'd asked her about before, she decided there might also be an adenoid issue. She referred us to Dr. Wei. Getting into Dr. Wei's office was harder than breaking into a Vegas casino's vault. But once we did get in, she was blunt and to the point, and we were finally on our way to a tonsil-blocking free life full of snore-less nights and a lack of fluid in the ears, which leads me to Friday's adventure.



Bailey had been promised she could bring a friend or two with her to the hospital. After some contemplation, she chose these two. The blue thing is actually a dog toy that was never given to Kaitlin, because a certain little redhead decided she'd much rather it belong to her. Anyway, she picked out her two pals and we had our bag all ready to go. The doctor had also mentioned to Bailey that she could bring a blanket along, which she grabbed, yet never used. And she knew she'd get to eat a Popsicle after the surgery and watch a movie. All of these things had been promised to her, which was why she was such a willing participant.

We'd read a book the night before, as mentioned in a previous blog entry. It was all about another little girl's tonsillectomy. I had found it in a book store (only by chance) a couple weeks prior and thought it might come in handy. We'd been honest with Bailey about this surgery, not wanting anything to be a surprise, other than perhaps, presents. We'd talked about it, both asked and answered questions, and made a shopping list of soft foods together which we later went and bought as a family. Our shopping cart looked like we'd busted into a Willy Wonka factory. There were that many sugary indulgences- pudding, chocolate yogurt, ice cream, Lemonade, Jell-O, Popsicles. You name it, we probably bought it. She couldn't wait to start eating them all.

Bailey was more prepared for this surgery than I ever would have expected a four year old to be. She had really paid attention to the story. But the story didn't mention some of the points we encountered. First off, the waiting room was far too crowded, so we hung out in the front entrance instead.


There was a little house to play in as well as that pirate ship, which she proudly pointed out she had at home, but in different colors. She played in there a great while with her two little stuffed friends. We also did some coloring with the crayons and miniature coloring book they had given her.


Does that crayon look yellow to you?

It was hard to keep ourselves from becoming too anxious.

I'm not normally one of those people who compulsively play with their phones and watches, but by this time, even I was obsessed with the time. But finally, we were taken into a room where we could do some more waiting.

The nurse brought Bailey a gown, which she exhibited great disgust towards. It took some convincing to get her to put it on.







Her "love" for the "hat" was even more profound.



She was starting to get a bit nervous and then the anesthesiologist came in and let her pick out her "flavor." He had an assortment of chapsticks, chapsticks of all flavors and brands. Bailey settled for grape. He took the grape and rubbed it throughout her gas mask and then gave it to her for safe keeping and was on his way. He had a wonderful approach with her and seemed to ease her worried, little mind. He explained how she'd breathe through it and what was going to happen. Bailey loves every little medical detail. Being left in the dark is never an option.

She tried her mask out on her little canine until Daddy and Mommy thwarted her efforts, citing something about getting the mask dirty, whatever that meant.





She certainly cheered up after her visit with Dr. Chapstick and before we knew it, she was ready to drive away to her surgical destiny, quite literally. Dr. Wei came in and asked her if she'd like to get into the Jeep and drive off, and that's just what she did, with Dr. Chapstick right behind her.



Oh, and you'd be proud of me (at least some of you will), because Dr. Wei asked me if I'd like her to take photos of the tonsils for me once they were out of my small Bailey's body, but I resisted, only because I knew Daddy would want to strangle me.

The surgery was supposed to be at 9:30, but they didn't actually get her in until close to 11. The wait felt like it took forever. We were anxious to have her returned to us and Dr. Wei motioned us into a small room and informed us how well the surgery had gone along with the news that Bailey had an abnormally large adenoid. She uses a technique on the tonsils and adenoid that basically burns them out rather than needing to do any cutting and stitches. And although she used her standard technique on the tonsils, she had to go to much greater lengths in removing the adenoid. Everything went splendidly though and then back to the waiting room we went. Waiting to see Bailey in the recovery room took even longer than it did after her surgery. Finally, we were escorted in back and there she was, sleeping like she's never slept before. Her breathing already sounded different. It was almost purely silent, something we'd never experienced before. It was creepy, really.

When she finally started to awaken, we asked her if she'd finally like her unicorn. She'd been asking all morning about her unicorn. It was supposed to be a surprise for her, but she knew it was in the bag during our wait in the room before the surgery and the thought of her new toy actually got her through most of the anxiety during the wait. It ended up being a good idea she had seen it peeking through the bag. Anyway, she quickly nodded for her new unicorn and gently smiled. You could tell she was a little sore, but she was a champion and so brave. The nurse offered her a Popsicle which she graciously took and she picked out the movie, A Bug's Life to watch. We'd never actually watched it before, but we've wanted to.



She opened one of her presents, the one from her Godparents, Mike and Julie, (she later opened the presents from us at home), ate another Popsicle, and before we knew it our original nurse returned and offered her something from the Treasure Box.





A girl after my own heart, she chose a pink crocigator hiding in the bottom of the chest. We went over our care instructions, and what had originally felt like an eternity then felt like a quick ticket out of there. She ended up sleeping most of the drive home and even once we got home, but once she did wake up, she was just like before, except her voice is different and that's going to take some major getting used to. But I think I can manage, after all, she made it through three procedures just fine.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Almost Like New

I figure I owe at least an update pertaining to Bailey's surgery. The tonsils and adenoid have officially been traded in for a set of ear tubes. Aside from absolutely hating her hospital gown and a sniffle here and there, Bailey was the ultimate champ. We heard other children screaming, but not our Bailey. She was the example of the perfect patient. And when it was time for her IV to be removed, she stuck out her little pasty white arm and let the nurse do her thing. I was extremely proud. I'll write more on our adventure later, but I wanted to at least share that everything was fine. The worst of it was while we waited during her surgery, we were forced to watch McCain on Fox News. Just as I thought I would die from the torture of both experiences, the rest of the people in the waiting area joined my inner thoughts with their own comments, in my favor, might I add. It eased a tense moment, I assure you. But Bailey's healthy and possibly for the first time in her beautiful four years of life, she's finally breathing through her nose. (The doctor told us it was one of the largest adenoids she had ever seen in a small child.)

We appreciated your warm wishes and prayers.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Goodbye Snore







Tomorrow morning, Bailey is having her snore removed. At least that's her version of events. Yes, that's right. Bailey says the doctor is taking out her snore. Her exact words. She always adds, "because little kids aren't supposed to snore," which is exactly what the doctor told us and is a bit disconcerting since Bailey has snored since infancy. In fact, Bailey was barely a few hours old and was snoring in the hospital. We now know that had we known the good doctor all those years before, we probably would've all slept a little better at night. Just kidding. I'm not sure I could've let them cut open my infant without a dire emergency.






So the snore is coming out. The doctor claims she'll be easier to wake in the mornings now and getting ready for school won't be such a hassle. I'm thinking wishful thinking. She also thinks Bailey will start gaining weight because little girls at the age of four shouldn't be under thirty pounds. I was petite as a child, so I'm not so sure that's true either. She says she'll toss and turn less. Again with the wishful thinking. But I do agree this is necessary, along with the ear tubes. She's had some pretty nasty ear infections this last year. A hearing test said she's showing some hearing loss with the fluid in her ears. It isn't permanent, thank heavens, but it does need to be treated. I also am looking forward to hearing my daughter breathe easier at night and not have to solely rely on breathing out of her mouth the majority of the time.
So as we read in our book tonight,






And Goodbye Snore. You will not be missed.

The Doctor's Diagnosis

I was going to write a post last Wednesday called, "Doctor, Doctor," but well, obviously, I did not.




But had I written it, it would've been fabulous, I assure you. And possibly informative. No wait, definitely informative. Alas, I did not.



But had I...even though I didn't, you'd know that those enlarged tonsils we discovered over a year ago are finally being kicked to the curb, evicted if you prefer, nixed, axed, yanked, flogged, well, you get the picture, maybe. And in the midst of the argument, the adenoids are leaving too. And that's not all, folks.

We're doing what anyone does in a breakup, we're on to something new: ear tubes.


After finally meeting the infamous Dr. Wei, the woman we've been impatiently waiting to meet, she diagnosed Bailey within seconds and gave us a thorough briefing on exactly what would happen and why. (It felt like a sales pitch, honestly, a rather convincing one.) The awesome part is that the doctor claims all of this will take place in less than forty-five minutes, INCLUDING the wonderful gas mask. She even gets to pick the flavor. Bailey's as thrilled as can be. And surprisingly, we're not all that scared. I guess it's because we knew this was happening for almost a year, so it's just relieving to know we're finally getting it over with.



And luckily, we'll never have to do it again.

Moving Day

Bailey's blog has now officially moved!!! Keep in mind, we're still "unpacking," and not everything could be brought to the new location, like the photo albums, but it's still an upgrade especially since AOL Journals was evicting us.


Feel free to join us:
http://baileyhardt.blogspot.com/

Saturday, October 18, 2008